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"ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME SO IM GONE / EITHER LOVE ME OR LEAVE ME ALONE / " - yall kno thats jay-z the great jigga man himself yall need to kno i love his skillfullness.. he fell off wit the new song. broke my heart..

"I AINT TALKIN BOUT DIAPERS WHEN I SAY WE LIVED AND WE LEARNED AND WE GOT LUV" - my husband Edwin isnt that the sexiest quote i love you baby

"ITS LIKE I ALWAYS SAY, GOOD THINGS HAPPEN WHEN YOU RUN AROUND NAKED LONG ENOUGH" - jimmy from yes dear its a cool show yall should watch

718 stand up for me ... so yall should kno im old enough to get arrested not that i would do anything that would lead to that lol and i like eatin kraft mac n cheese wit my hands when it aint too damn soggy and i like drawin on my door wit sharpies yall aint ready for that, and also im married of coarse ...soo i love writin my poetry and songs and whatnot ... so could yall read my stuff and comment please...

You / Untitled

it's been less than two years but i put my two cents in /
you make me feel like a dime when i feel like two cents and /
you love me and i love you too baby, and you too sexy/
and when you next to me, it's like ecstasy/
and i'll neva be two faced and, always embrace you/
and all that you gave me and cuz you saved me/
from what i could've become, but you done integrate me/
wit you and now you, are a part of me baby/
and apart from you the world takes me/
and i'm tryin to breathe but it still suffocates me/
and i'm tryin to live but it's still tryin to stab me/
in my heart in my soul, tryin to cut out the piece that you put in me baby/
and i'll get on my knees and tell God to please help me/
and lock me in a room wit you like a cellmate/
and i'll hold you close so i feel your heartbeat in your ribcage/
and grab hold of that moment youth dont get like it's vintage/
so i hold eternity in my palm like that ring on my finger/
and everytime that you leave feel like someone done pull a trigger/
to separate me from life, you my life, i invision,/
see this life, and i know it's the same in your mind,/
and we both see the rain and we both get through the grind/
and we both know the pain from which more love was derived/
and in my mind, things ain't never gon change, for the worse/
this my word, my soul been despersed and over time you submersed me/
in your love and then cursed me got me addicted and thirsty/
like i stay sippin on worse things than alcoholics and feinds/
i'm jus stuck on visions of beautiful kisses and anatomical dreams/
and i done cop the perfect man in a world of anatomical fiens/
we grown closer then ever like we got subatomical seams/
and to people it seems we wilin out wit these dreams/
and to most it's obscene, never seen somethin so real but they unclear so they make it a scene/
and things ain't what they seem cuz though i can't even hear you/
and though there's miles in between us, baby i'm always near you/
and in every situation there's haters, anticipating/
to be right but they wrong all along its a long journey/
and the dawn ima wake up early see you holdin me firmly/
is all worth it and i know you'll always be there for me/
and ima be there for you too, give me two minutes to kiss you the way that you want me to, jus/
there's too much interference in between us/
but you purified me and killed my inner demons/
and i wanna be close to you like earth to venus/
so let everyone else leave me long as you in my life/
cuz no matter what knives life done through toward us/
all it did is forward us, cuz we fused our souls in all strife/
and it don't matter if we goin through fire or ice, torture or paradise,/
baby you know it, i've always stayed your wife/ ~*~

~*~DyaMonD~*~ aka Xx___NyZ_CLaRitY___xX

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new poem.... i went on wordplay and im makin a "awe poem".. i dont think it came out as a awe poem though... *note, when i say r kelly cds, i DONT mean the sex video dvd thing, i mean his music cds .. i dont like my showers golden ... lol

I editted this one but i dont have the new version. the new ones way better.

you drive me crazy for no reason
inside and still teasin wit your lips on my neck
how the hell you do that like you cant help but get my head all off track
wit the world and think bout givin you a baby boy or a girl
and let everyone kno
you amaze me
baby you crazy
in the sense of the word meanin amazin
you contagious like sars
blazin me like a fever
and if we ruled the world, like lauryn and nas,
it'll be, you and me, endlessly, but there aint gon be,
no nypd, no i-s-h-t, wit my pops and mami
jus cuz they cant see we gon be
and cuz you aint white like me or t.p
but i'll always be your wifey
and, honestly,
you amaze me
you got me all crazy, jus imaginin you baby
got me spacin out wit fantasies
the kinda stuff on r kelly cds, mp3s
goin "half on a baby", "it seems like you ready"
matter fact, i kno
but i aint have your key in my "ignition" lately,
i need you, believe me, and i hate bein on our "down low"
like we "trapped in the closet", wit foes outside the doors
who chose they wont let us go, so i cant wait for
the day come and you give me the word,
cuz you gave me the world,
so we'll tell um to "step in the name of love", and let us roll
cuz aint no love in the heart of new york
so we goin lower, where its warm, chill at flo
where the old folks go to retire
anyone say you aint true, they all liars,
pants on fire like 'uffin a corner skank
or jus bein entirely bein misinformed of the fact
you amazin
when, after days of havin no choice, but bein alone, hardly hearin your voice,
i throw my arms around you, overflowin wit joy
oh boy, and it crazy when you grab me and stay steady tacklin me
on the bed or whatever you want
its for sure, see, when you put it on me,
and its true love that makes me scream your name
i wanna stay encased in your gaze, trapped in your amazin love forever,
invadin me the way i love
but then i gotta bounce like cinderella and act like i never known love
and in a world of misdemeanors
dirty cats walkin round in clean sneakers
washin triflin hands in jewelry cleaner
and fake friends that, combined, cant measure up to you
you the only one i kno is true
i still gotta measure up, make it all up to you, boo
do what i do, stay true, in the mood to say i do
come through when i could
if you could, i kno you would officially wife me, wish its soon,
and i dont mean to intrude,
but every miniscule minute make me wish i was wit you
and i aint feignin to be rude,
im sorry boo for the bull i pulled you through
and thank you for schoolin me on how to be true and lettin us pull through
i cherish you
cant wait till i marry you
its very true, and every dude out there that claim he a real man like you
if they half real as you, they good
if they less, they bull
if my love for you was in my belly, im full
im tellin you, i changed and grew
so dont think ima 'ef up or stop carin for you
i hope we luck up and the years go by soon
cuz we cant be stopped, jus put on hiatus,
these haters can hate us, but never will they eliminate us
we'll jus hol our 'ish off till later,
till they cant separate us wit their inane stuff
and we could make love wit no consequences other than concievin an angel for us
life is so much stuff, but wit you in it, im sittin wit chocolates like forrest gump
and i wish i was under house arrest, jus
make sure the house is yours
the moral of this verse
is love is a blessing and a curse
and your sorrows i yearned to disperse
thrown in the wind, i still managed to learned i turned to a source of the blues
cuz instead of the old ones bein lost, new ones i brought onto you
i aint kno,
but aint no excuse,
so excuse me and pardon,
i come from the heart when
im sorry and my love's bein ingrained in my soul
so im remorseful at myself
cuz you took me as i came, till i came, took me whole and
i dont kno why at times all i show is my worst and
you took my heart, broke in and took control of
no mans land, my emotional fortress
till it only agreed to beat if it beat in your name
and you took my spiritual, took it all till
im convinced you saved my life before it started cuz me and you is fate
what im sayin, i would never have been put on this earth if,
my destiny wasnt to be your soulmate
and you took my mentality, my brain and my mind still,
even before that, before we laid eyes, i wanted to be wit you in some way
and you took me, my physical, pushed deep inside me, im your name steady screamin
but it seem like i took you, cuz the withdrawal symptoms is killin me, day by day
witout even seein you or havin my arms round your neck and yours on my hips,
reminisce, missin the x of your kiss, the sweet taste of your lips
and, im jus sayin, i cant help but think, you took my
mind body and soul
forevermore, took it all
but on the real it feel like i aint give you nothin,
nothin but the wrong
and i kno if the world was to 'ef off and let us elope
wit no more nights alone
we wont have to cope wit these fights way we do anymore
dont get me wrong, i aint tryin to pass no blame off on socety, that whore
i kno i been wrong though
u kno im always yours
and i love you
boy, this so crazy
even when my vision turn hazy and im angry at my baby
and when thers no explanation for my eyes full of tears, im grateful
i got you and this life, im rejoicing inside
cuz i see clear how every event that has happened to me
has guided me to finally meet gaze wit them beautiful eyes
and the existance of you and i
as one, and, engaged, cant wait to turn to your wife
and in time, when its clear, this was meant to be,
not to jus you and me
we clarified, we kno it very well
and in entirety it aint me tryin to be heroic or rebel
but that i love you and i need you
and they shouldnt be believin in all the hype
but its alright, cuz you always my baby, and you right baby, you always been right
and i
cant help but think im goin crazy
cuz you in my present, perfect, and i aint even 'tense'
and how i saw you could mean so much, you had a high definition
and i checked you out, you worth so much, so its amazin, i managed to bag you like a hi def
and cuz of you, i can see like im lookin through contacts
wit my prescription
and it aint fiction but i feel like a princess in a fairy tale,
you jus what i needed boy
and peoples heads get bit off when we one witout the other like seigfried and roy
cuz everythin better when we together not jus when it look like we rulin troy
surrounded by trojans, your souljas, and all this
love radiatin, fillin rooms ceilin to floor
and the feelin of them lips, soft texture and pressure's
right when you pressin them to to my lips or my skin while pressin me closer and layin me down, hips aligned, till i lose control
and my minds thinkin one thought,
'get inside boy, cmon, be inside'
take control, do whatever you desire
you kno its all yours, jus rain on my fire
cant wait to give you a child and
spend every night in your arms or wit you up in my thighs
so take it and dont let it go
and then you gotta go ... i can take it ...
baby, no more, i aint tryin to fill the void
you leave every time you leave, you go,
wit poetry all about you
listenin to songs, emotional
thinkin, maybe i could get you out of my mind
and be at peace, no longer feel lonely
and cease to exist in this world, jus for a second or so, see
it hurt too much bein alone
and im breakin down, its crackin me open
i dont wanna struggle wit this anymore
cuz ill give up anythin jus to marry you right now, at this moment
and not be haunted by the memories of the day before
when you was mines
and i kno you mines now, way you mines forever,
but i need to reach out and feel your physical there
i sense your spiritual clear but when i look to the horizon and i kno you somewhere in the distance,
you here but yet you far gone
for instance, the way you my better half, a part of me and i could be wit you easy
yet at the same time, you out of my sight and its tearin at my heart
it aint easy bein apart
even if i kno im a part of us no matter what the 'ef is settin us apart
loves a art and we perfect it to perfection and we make it come from the heart
the way its suppose to
but it seem we cant have our talent and use it too, thats what bugs me
that and not bein wit you
lets go back
remember that day, first time we proved to each other we existed
i was captivated, your voice and what i knew of you made me melt
so that you was all i could think of
the nex day i was buzzin your phone feinin to conversate wit you again
interested...
cuz all i knew was you got my attention, not carin if some people might call it desperate
but i needed you on that line, that long distance affection
i felt between us though we was hardly friends, in the end, the phone line connection turned to marriage intentions
and of the squabbles, imperfections on dial up connections, the cables untangled, wit love, untamable, of untold of dimention, its us
though i aint have to mention, not to you ... not to you
i love you, my love
i wish you could take away this tension, not jus sexual, but from lampin on my bed, pensive,
wit a writin utensil
not leavin my room for food or any of that ish like anorexics
jus rather figure out some questions
like why my days without our interactions been smellin offensive like defecations
my intentions in our relations is to never be alone
but till then im in concentration, deep and long
to establish why i aint livin when i aint wit you,
and you kno how i feel
... and it aint workin that good,
it aint workin ... sittin solitary at home..
baby, i want you in every way
and i need you more
cuz truth is, witout you im alone
even when im surrounded
if you not there, im grounded
come see me baby, lift me off the ground and
take me high wit you ... no, to you
where i feel elliott ness untouchable
and no one could bring us down,
from the sky, to earth? impossible
until, damn ... time ran out, its goodbye until
the nex time im wit you, cuz you hol me down, tight, like a diet pill
and when no one around baby, and i am here,
and even when i cant show you how i feel, i am real,
and its there, believe me, i love you, unconditionally
and im crazy
cuz i feel like there so much small signs like petitions for fleas
all pointin in the direction you driftin from me
but i kno it aint you, i kno it baby, its me
turnin away, hidin behind that indifference,
where i feel safer, though i kno damn well im safest out in the open, bridgin the distance, in your arms,
cuz you'll never do me no harm but still i hurt for no reason
and it sucks baby, it really does,
cuz i cant open up like celebics
but i gotta, so now im fightin for us,
fightin against two elements,
my nature, and my time,
my fourteen days, i gotta get through my mind
i gotta let him in or i gotta let him go
and i dont have no choice
but openin closed doors
cuz love overpower you, thats what it do to most,
and you love him
and you need him
so the one thang in this world
you wont ever be able to succeed in,
is to take your heart, your soul,
the love of your life, pure,
spread your fingers,
... and let him go.

                                        - aug 11 

end part one ...

...

I.v

I could be what you need
i promised, i did
and i know its hard believein in me,
but we'll see,
cuz this time, i cant afford to break it, to break
and i dont want to make a mistake, to set you free,
or go on a break
and i broke us, so im broken down,
but i've spoken out
that ima turn it around,
and i will,
willpower and you at the goal box is all i need to succeed and i will,
for you baby, i will
cuz im in a shell and i need to break out like smallpox, im ill
witout you, so its about time i recognize your right as my husband to be able to get inside,
i aint talkin nasty,
its jus time for some drastic changes, its the only way to make it,
cuz i want to be wit you, the only offer, so ima take it
cuz you know i love you baby
and your coffers aint got gold or platinum,
that ish dont matter, what you holdin down is priceless, precious, golden love,
thats what i gotta get at,
my bad, i meant i know i got it, but lately i stayed thinkin it might slip out my grasp
till i felt your fingers slippin over my clasped hands,
lettin me know,
you gon stand by me and i know you cant have me fail,
but succeed, keepin me serene,
sincerely all i need
and baby you the most beautiful human being,
on earth, almost surreal
and its like you jus to perfect to be human,
but i could marry angels too, and
im so grateful i got someone as amazin as you, babe, by my side
you dont even get it,
jus thinkin of how much you love me, that ish could make me cry
but 'ef that, im smilin, thinkin bout them times, that get
lodged in my mind,
nah mean, the ones wit you in my arms, lotus ponds in your eyes,
and then there's the ones that shut sight of every pinstripe of light
and i dodged, i aint lied,
but denied, tried to hide from the truth,
and i couldn't hide from you
i aint accept the fact that all my assets was meant to be always available, accesible at all extents to you,
and my mind, myself, mindlessly mostly meandered, minus means,
from the makeup of the material mailed to my man,
so me lookin in my mirror was mainly all that made it there and
made a myriad of mess, mas problemas
that we need to work out, like goin to the gym together,
oops, my bad again, babe,
its jus me that gotta gather my 'ish and get it together,
nearin the day decidin on our status, your destination,
cant believe it happened, cant believe im calm
could this be real, what im thinkin, feelin, frantic fadin, maybe you aint leavin?
feelin relieved that ima finally get it over wit,
thought it would feel like judgement day to a addict
one who been named it, not for doin too much, but instead too little,
well let me rephrase that a bit and this how it is, babe
i did too much to keep me a secret,
one that was supposed to be loose, when im wit you
floatin in the air, to be inhaled and felt,
like o2 molucules, i want to honor you, pay homage and my dues,
that i been owin for over a year, damn, im thrown and,
cant pay minimum payments
no more, i know babe
i love you, 'butter' 'ish dont go smooth when im cold like ima cinnamon bagel
its all that, and all of that
ish i aint mention yet that complicate our relations,
pokin holes in our relationship
and tense 'ish,
know we cant quit,
but someone inside tellin me i best slip
tol me before i aint never gon change for no dick
not in two weeks
afraid to let someone else other than myself get to know me too intimate
and then, damn, you speak
of separation, flashin back to the feelin
when you said you was leavin
to florida for two years and
i knew i had to do it and couldnt mess it up, true that
too scared to ask how good im doin,
hope i aint foolin myself when im thinkin, "it feels like he gon stay"
i need you babe,
i need you to be my baby every day
i need you for the nex two years
its hard enough, look, me
in s.i, ny, you at jersey
if i aint your boobie, i cant survive wit you away from me, 'in fl' like a eagle rookie
i need you forever
but if you do let go and float away on that 'ish i formed, that river,
not forever, till '08 august 27
still, you gon be my only,
and you know it gon stay your nookie,
you the one that took me
mind body and soul is always yours
im jus tellin you, i cant live witout you, boy, its
the truth
its the truth
and i hope you make the choice
to stay, only if you want to
cuz you, i cant lose
i tried to do what i could, sorry if it aint no good
but i wanted to do you good, ima give you the best, true, promise you, this time i aint on no bull,
see me through
i aint gon let you see me through a glass
i aint in jail
why i been hidin in a cell
locked my own ass behind bars and threw out the keys, what the hell
thank the lord you found them ishs and freed me from myself
cuz i cant for so long alone, wit out you
i want to come along wit you, meet me boo, come alone
so we could jus spend some time like em and obie
and then, make you come at your home
and chill like we used to, witout a problem in the world
cuz if you see perfection, who aint gon keep followin the road
leadin to it, i know
its all cuz of you
10 hours before i see you,
dont know what lies ahead of that
but 'ef that, regardless, cant wait to see you
although the fact remains, intact,
and it done infect my head
so that im playin the scene over in my head, rewindin it back
imaginin how i would react
and tears formin, picturin me holdin
onto you one last time, after the impact,
dont think i could handle that ish
i need you, i cant mean it more than i do in this sentence
i know i been reckless, lost my senses,
keepin you out like there wasnt gon be consequenses
and consequently, maybe you made up your mind already and good as left me,
or maybe i still gotta prove that im truly yours in its purest form
then again, it may be you know that you aint never leavin, aint never lettin go,
long as your soul breathin, never let me be alone,
and though it hurt, you gon cope when we aint together,
and im sorry we dont always get along and that we aint eloped
but i cant wait to marry you and if choice number three
is the way that you feel
and you thinkin bout how i wrote down the feelin so right, so perfect, i aint gotta say nil,
im sure you already know it,
but hol on, the
last line i aint read yet
says i love you, so much,
and ima give you everythin but the kitchen sink, ima give you my all,
where i'm readin it from?
well these aint jus words on a paper, aint no words in no ink,
remember them feelins i wrote about so clear,
what they is, is they prophecies come true, scriptures like heiroglyphics, its all
inscriptions, that deep ish, forever instilled in, inscribed to forever remain in my soul.

                                              -aug 26