User:!ellie gurl!
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hey, my names ellie and i luv to write poetry.. though ive never actually let anyone except for a few close friends see my poems b4 so im not so used to ppl commending or criticizing them.. but im hoping u guys will like em... so comment and tell meh wat u think! thx, XxelliexX
ps. most of my poems are aboute what i was going through when i wrote them.. though a few can be alittle silly and/or wierd! hehe
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The pain of love
so many tricks,
so many lies.
too many whens,
too many whys.
this glass heart is cracking,
all the way down.
partially shattering,
with a defeating sound.
my body writhing,
and squirming in pain.
listening loudly,
to a silent scream.
seeing the darkness,
feeling tears stream.
and watching my wrists,
invisibly bleed.
eyes decieving...
eyes decieving,
mind disbelieveing.
cutting my wrists,
watching them bleeding.
im fading away,
day by day.
im not even here anymore,
not really anyway.
Toxxic and Deadly..
toxxic and deadly,
the morphine inside me,
gives me the courage,
to put this gun to my head.
i get ready to pull it,
thinking of you,
and all those times you said,
"i love you too"
i hope you realize,
im dead cause of you,
not cause i killed myself,
but cause of everything you put me through.
ill have finally been freed,
from this cruel evil place,
where you said all those things,
straight to my face.
when you find me dead,
youll know i finally realized,
the lies in everything youve ever done and said.
now im done,
sitting here with a gun to my head.
*BOOM*
- IM DEAD-
Hidden behind this smile
outside im shining,
inside im dying,
tears keep crying in my head.
words keep flashing,
love keeps dashing,
never to come back again.
crying,
bleeding,
slits on my wrist,
laying in bed,
use my last wish,
to keep my word,
when i told you the truth....
i said,
"Without you,
im better off DEAD!
Why?
why is it that life,
never has a happy ending?
do you feel like that too?
or is it just me?
the dark ahead,
is all i can see.
the person i am,
is all i can be.
i cant push it aside,
this feeling inside.
dont you see....
your all too late...
no one can save me!
I truely loved you...
you lied,
you left.
youve flirted,
youve slept.
you a natural dreamer,
just not aboute me.
everything that is,
and has ceased to be.
was never really all aboute me.
youve pushed me to the very edge,
and ive decided to jump.
baby, would you even save me,
or just watch me tumble down?
Suicidal
suicidal,
in denial,
at everything around me.
day or night,
dark or light,
all i see is you.
My mask
tired of being someone else,
tryin to hide myself inside.
nobody knows who i truely am,
its not like i really tryed..
to be someone im not,
like i had myself defyed.
ive lied to myself for so long,
its like my real true self just died.
ive finally realized not to hide,
and let myself be true.
well that was the fake me,
and that me's done and through!
The real deal...
Why are you so mean to me,
why are you this way?
how can i believe in you,
if all you do is lie?
you broke my heart,
and trust for you.
Now i see you will always be this way.
i hate myself for thinking,
it would be different for me.
thast they wre just people,
jokes and games,
and i was the real deal.
but now i know,
i was just a girl,
another one of your meangingless girls!
I thought...
i thought you loved me,
i thought you cared.
all i had was my heart to give,
but now i dont even have that.
you said you needed me,
to stay alive.
that i was teh one for you,
but i guess you LIED!!!
Your supposed to be Happy..
people say there happy,
happy as can be.
but way down deep inside,
they cant believe what they see.
they want to be normal,
cuz they think if your normal youll be free.
but ill never be free,
with all these deep dark secrets,
down inside of me.
so you can lie,
and say its not true,
but way down deep inside,
you know im just like you!
I thought you were my friend...
i thought you were my friend,
my sissta 4 life.
but then how could you do that,
its like you stabged my heart with a knife,
then took it out,
and did it again.
no i realize our friendship was all just pretend.
you were always there when i would cry,
but i guess it was all just a big fat lie.
how could you do this,
i want to know why.
is it because you hate me,
tell me,
dont be shy!
i need to know,
so i can fix it,
but i guess its too late...
now isnt it!?!
yah i have way more poems.. but ill have to put the rest up another day when i have more time.. well yah seriously tho tell meh wat u think it would be reeli appreciated so i can try to fix it.. or maybe u could give me sum more ideas cuz im kinda runnin out.. well yah peace out! XxelliexX
